[ VENT ] Patience Wears Thin

 I decided to vent this to my blog cause I am feeling upset and stressed out and want to scream into my lil slice of void for a second. It is so fucking tiring trying to always be the best I can and being returned just pittance. So, for context, Someone sent me something I don't like in my DMs and I mentioned I don't like it. They immediately went onto the defensive saying it wasn't the focus. That doesn't change what it fucking IS. But, yeah, I guess I am in the wrong when they send something they know I don't like and I don't like it and feel uncomfortable with it. And even if they forgot, that doesn't excuse them getting on the offensive. They send sarcastic gifs and I say again in clear terms that it is not respecting my boundaries and they get on the offensive mentioning how they already deleted it, despite having deleted it while I was typing. I then explain myself further saying I was just explaining it and didn't see it then they start to antagonize me more saying I am freaking out when I "beat a dead horse and it explodes." They are going on the offensive and antagonizing me and when I try to drop it they go on and keep telling me to drop it and move on despite me already trying to multiple times, they could of just shut the fuck up and dropped in themselves but they kept "Beating a Dead Horse" in of themselves and show no fucking self awareness about what they are doing.

I try my best to be my best. I try to be understanding and not do things that I know will only make issues worse... However... It is so fucking hard to do this. It takes so much energy to just let shit go and be the better person, particularly when I am as emotional as I am. I want to be a good person and turn the other cheek, but I also really wanna fucking put people in their place. I want them to see what they do onto others, to feel the pain they inflict. I want to fucking stand up for myself. But if I do it will only make their delusions stronger, it will only validate their dismal grim dark view of the world, it will only play into their "Woe is Me" fuck shit, it will only make them play the role of "victim" or more so in the right even more, it will only make them listen somehow less than they already do. It is so tiring dealing with this. I have to just fuckin take their bullshit if I want a chance at all to help them realize how much bullshit they put me through. And even sadder yet is this is not an isolated event to one person. It happens multiple times, over and over again, with so so so many people. They do not listen, they are not wrong, they are the victim, I am their antagonist, and I must be defeated.

Now, know that I am not a good person, at least in my eyes. I am another flawed pile of flesh and neurons trying to be my best to be something more than a spec of sentient space dust in the grand scheme of existence. I am not fully innocent in these moments cause I do act out, I do play into their petty game of us-vs-them mentality, I play into their ideas that we live in this clear binary world where anything that is not us must be destroyed. I am not a good person in my eyes, but I am trying. I am making so much effort, but I don't ever feel anything back. They often say treat others how you want to be treated, but of how I treat others, there is still way too many examples of others just treating me like shit.

Please, if you ever find yourself in a situation like this, please put forth your best efforts to stop, read, think, then react. If we only ever react based on the momentary feelings we get when reading something, we will be nothing more than our gut reactions, and so often in a modern world those gut reactions are horribly misplaced. We feel stressed and we immediately will go into flight or fight response and we will just act in ways that only makes the situation worse. If we put forth the effort to take time before we act, we will have time to think, giving us the opportunity to act with precise effort to not escalate issues, but rather actually resolve them. You don't always have to start wars, you can just say "Sorry, didn't mean to." and move on.

Gosh, I have lost years of my life to this.

Keep Howling,
W <3 L F

Add on to the last post

Also, I decided to just mark this blog with the mature content warning as well, just cause I don't feel like censoring myself when it comes to lewder things.

also, I forgot my sign off, so

keep howlin'

W <3 L F

Random thoughts on NSFW vs SFW

Random thing just cause I was thinking about it,
if I ever do open up a more public server, I think I might make the rules for what is considered NSFW or SFW a bit different just cause the colloquial use of them bugs me. Or, well, When I say SFW vs NSFW, I more so mean just the defining of what would be considered which in the case of art and nudity and such.

I would want the freedom of doing artistic nudity but not having to label it and store it with porn just to differentiate nudity from sexual nature in general; however, the idea I had was as such.

SFW art of any given person just requiring at the very least their genitals and ass covered, notably not their chest. Separating the genderization people typically like to do from the defining of it to allow a more clear secure definition that is more easily understood. Notably, genitals would count as covered if the entire genital organ is covered in a way that doesn't reveal it, like you can not see it through the covering. It wouldn't have to necessarily fully hide the shape, but it can't be just visible through the shape, that being only broadly suggested if at anything, and same with the ass, or to be more specific the anus itself. By normal definition of these terms this would theoretically allow someone who is 99% naked to be considered SFW, which is alright because nudity should not be so inherently seen as a sexual thing. (Grain of salt, I am a nudist.)

Artistic SFW takes this a step further where the subject can be full naked; however, the point of the piece isn't to illicit a sexual response. It could still comment on the state of the sexual nature on things, but if it's a think piece rather than a wank piece then you are fine.

NSFW, in the case of sexual content, is anything made with the intention of pleasure or sexual return out of it. This would include anything kink related and would even include things that would normally be just fully clothed and "SFW" by the older definition due to, well, the sexual nature involved in it. And further the NSFW category would then further be restricted by the Harkness Test, just to be safe.

Although, even with all of this, servers I make will still be 18+ adult only regardless, so it probably wouldn't matter in the end. lmao 

Thoughts on MMORPGs

Just a random moment where I was thinking about MMORPGs. In my time I've played a lot of MMORPGs and have experience with a wide range of both MMOs and also RPGs separately. I've had fun times, but every time there just feels like there's something else I want out of them. I keep experiencing this more and more where I try new things, get used to them, and find things that I feel like could be better, finding myself wanting more out of everything, wanting better quality or more intriguing complexities or depths. This goes for everything in general, but for MMOs I feel like there's a few things I wanna see at some point.

1) Professions that feel like they matter which can hold their own as a strong foundation to the mechanics.

2) Diverging from class based systems to give better customizability and flexibility to build creation.

3) Baseline foundations for mechanical gameplay depth to play off of.

4) Baseline gameplay that has more engagement than the typical "Click on thing and then click your abilities and it will automatically target and cast."

I feel like the first two are mostly self explanatory; however, for the third one, I wanna see these gameplay foundations that have interesting affect on how you play the game. Like a companion focused base where it plays like an RTS game with your stationary companions acting like buildings and mobile companions acting like units. A ranged attack focused system for spells and physical ranged weapons that play like first or third person shooters that you can just aim and shoot with but that rewards you for hitting weak spots on enemies. A melee focused system that lets you use what ever you get your hands on to fight and brawl to your hearts content that plays more like a souls-like game.

As for the fourth thing, you get a sense for it in the explanation of the third point; however, branching out from how you play the game would be wonderful for making games more interesting and have more depth. Now, I know that this would be a tall ask for an MMORPG, heck, it's a miracle MMORPGs can even make it out of development, but I will always look to the future and see these things that we could do more on. A theoretical way of accomplishing something like this would be building up each foundational of gameplay separately, starting with a game that is an RPG with a lot of focus on professions and the world to build up the world design and profession systems. An RTS game where you are a physical character that you have to manage and protect while fighting with your companions. A souls-like game to work on making clean movement and combat systems. Finally, a game focusing around weaving magic and ranged weapons together in a seamless way that encouraging aiming and precision during boss battles. Then from those games you would have to combine them together, which will be easier if you work them from the ground up to build off each other, and then multiplayer which is a beast in of itself. The creation of the MMO at that point would be taking these individual games, combining them, then mass crowd multiplayer handling which in of itself would likely be the hardest part.

I should say, as a game dev, I know this is not an easy task. I am not calling anyone else out to do this and I couldn't see myself doing this... at least not with out practice. If anyone ever finds this and wants to use this production timeline to try and make their own MMORPG, I HIGHLY encourage it. As for me, well, I always have big visions like this, as you all will know from my prior posts. I hope someday I can play an MMORPG that really hits just right for me, but it is unlikely to ever really happen, and even then perfection is unobtainable; HOWEVER! with that I will say that we always have higher goals we can hit, we always have further we can reach, and I hope I can someday make you all proud.

thank you for reading,

~ W <3 L F ~

Canine Compendium Opened

 Yo!

I ended up opening a new blog to start slapping story stuff into, I also added anotherrrr author to the blog so we can both post to it. Hopefully it can help me get some more creative flow.

https://caninecompendium.blogspot.com/

~ W <3 L F ~

Follow up on last post

 Actually, thinking on it, I use this as a news blog so probably would make a separate blog for that. Also would make sure it's set as adult. Probably should set this site as adult at some point.



yeh



- W <3 L F

hmmmm...

 Hmmm...


What if I just started posting short story writing stuff here?


Like, I got a lot of lil short story romance things I wanna write, maybe I can just slap it here..


Like, I don't post much here, I probably should post more, and I have a lot of lil random stories floating around in my noggin just from general day to day stuff.


And I wanna draw short web comics for the stories but also been dealing with Mental Degradation Wrought Inability to just fuckin do anything I enjoy doing so maybe just bashing them out and dropping them here would be the way to go.


And if you happen upon this
Henlo

I didn't expect you to be here

Quite honestly surprised

My younger self was cringe so fair warning if you look at older posts. lol

hm.


yeh



- W <3 L F

Howl it Doooooooooo

Another echo out to the net.

Been really busy on my end.

Hope you all been well

Been working on SOTDT

Quad Numeris

A lot of Art (See art blog for a massive art pile)

A lot of my back burner projects are cold right now just cause I have been trying to work my way up to them more to make sure they turn out better, along with generally just trying to get a few other things done as well as just general life slow downs.

But yeah

Despite the silence, things are still in the works.

The Clockwork Mechanism is Ticking

The River is Flowing

The Sands of Timer Eternal

But I hope you all are good out there.

Stay safe, The world is a Scary place, right now.

I love you all, You can do it.

To whom it may concern,

Your Loopy Lupine,
~ Amy ~

Theoretical instrument to Measure Time Dilation over Gravitation Force

 G'day,

I am here to chronical an idea I had for a theoretical instrument to measure what would basically be the effect of gravity on perceived time. This device could be theoretically used to measure to see if the dilation of time from the effect of gravity is noticeable in electronics as well as giving a way to measure the dilation.

The basic idea of the instrument is a long space-proofed cable containing a Optical Cable, Two wires for Data Signals, and Two wires for Power. This cable will be covered in layers of various materials to protect against cosmic background radiation as well as the environments of planets it is used to measure the Gravitation Time Dilation of. At either end of this instrument will be a small electronic enclosure that will serve to take in an incoming signal from each line, record how long it's been since the last signal, and then send that signal back along with the data it has collected. One end will have it's electronics able to be hooked into an array with other cells like it, each sending their data into the satellite the instrument is connected to.

The instrument will be calibrated in the depth of space away from the gravitational pull of most celestial bodies, essentially just signaling back and forth along the probes to zero out for the effects of it's own gravitational pull along with the travel delay of the data transmission through the wires, doing this multiple times and averaging it out over time to have an averaged zero, allowing it to measure external effects on the data transmission.

The probe array will return data to the main computer responsible for collect, calculating, and displaying the data. Each probe cell has four variables for each measure, a variable for the optical cable and a variable for the wire signal for each end of the probe. this 2x2 cell will then have the data averaged out over the types of wires giving the probe end average and then the data will have the further probe divided over the closer probe to get a rough dilation percentage experienced for the cell, which could be layed out as "((P1C1+P1C2)/2)/((P2C1+P2C2)/2) = D" (Apologies for the terrible formatting of that.) The data further can have the average time dilation per row or column of probe cells in the array and then an over all time dilation average measured out across the entire array, potentially also having the dilation divided further by the length of the probe cells used to gauge the gradient of dilation over the factor of gravity.

Finally, to operate the Time Dilation Measurement Device the Satellite would need to get into orbit of a celestial body, allowing the probe array to dip down into the gravitational pull of the celestial body before running a series of pings within the probe array to get an averaged out measurement over time.

I do not know how effective this would be at measuring this theoretical variable, but I hope someone out there may see this and be inspired in one way or another.

Thank you for your time,
W <3 L F

P.S. Sorry for being MIA, and Happy New Years.

Update - 3/30/2024

 Heya Mates!

The Wolf Studios here and I wanted to write out a more fleshed out update after that last quick blip. It's been a while since I posted here, but I've been a bit busy with some stuff behind the scenes here. No crazy progress been made, buuuuut some fun news!

Our Hero!
< Available Now on Itch.io >

My first full release, Our Hero! is a lil side scrolling game inspired by the Chrome No Connection Dinosaur Game where you play Sargent Ratthew, a military intelligence messenger rat, whose goal is to deliver the intel as far into the front lines as you can. The game is a super simple I threw together with some art doodle for assets and by all means is very unpolished; However, I am quite proud to say that I have made a full game and released it in some kind.

Our Hero! was my way of learning how to use the Godot engine and is a culmination of the basics I learned about that engine over a small period of time, being made in roughly three days of work.

Secrets of the Dax'thuu

Unfortunately here I haven't yet made any more major progress on Secrets of the Dax'thuu, but I have still been slowly detailing and... admittedly adding more content that I will have to go through for it. It's been a hot minute since I last talked about it sooo if you are new Secrets of the Dax'thuu is a D&D Expansion Setting I have been working on that I wanted to make publicly available at some point. The more I work on it, the more I realize this setting is very geared towards my style of DMing and it may not really be super popular amongst many; However, there's a lot of content and fun ideas in it that I hope will be enjoyed when it finally releases!

Project: Ex Deo

Thisss one is a bit rough, but since I got into learning Godot this hasn't been touched, like, at all... HOWEVER, Lost, but not forgotten. Project: Ex Deo has been moved to the back burner till I am more familiar with the Godot engine.

5k Pageviews!

I am excited to say that the counter has broken 5k page views! this is thrilling to see and brings me great joy and I thank all of you for enjoying witnessing my various works, rambles, and etc.

Project 4

ooooOOOOoooo~ Mysterious project with only the number four to give you a clue on what it could meaaan!~ In all seriousness, Project 4 is kinda hype for me cause I came up with the entire idea and conceptualized a lot of it in a single sleepless night and it has been coming to me pretty easily and will likely just will itself into existence when I sit down and focus up on working on it. The hint I will give is it's related to TTRPGs and SOTDT

Wolf Jam 2024

I kinda almost forgot about reminders for Wolf Jam, not gunna lie; However, Wolf Jam 2024's submissions close in three days, after the submissions close I have some reviewers to help me go through this year's submissions if there are any. Afterwards I will give the theme for next year's Wolf Jam.

Other & Etc

It has been a bit of a quiet one for me, but I've been doing well, been busy though. I've been working on getting things done in my personal life so I can work on stuff with more security in my well being and etc, which unfortunately being... mortal... means I have to deal with that. However! No worries that it'll get in my way! Or the way of any crewww I might bring on cause, well, The Wolf Studios beyond just being my online self will also ideally blossom into an actual game studio someday... But for now, just me and my meme posts on Youtube and an abnormal number of projects being worked on at once.

Some other general news for recent times:
One of my [ Recent Videos ] has taken off and has peaked the records on my Youtube channel.

I have been banging my head against a wall to learn how to do from-scratch Voxel systems and also Twitch integrations in Godot. (Pls help me.)
I might be dusting off my FA soon to start posting on there again since it's been tooo long

annnnnd that's all I can think of.
Stay Safe, Maties.
- W <3 L F

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Hi, henlo, it me, the CREATURE.

I still exist, I've been very distracted and "busy" with s t u f f f f

but, hey, look...
[ I learned Godot ]

well, "Learned"
I am still learning Godot, but it's all going well enough. I am just happy that I FINALLY have something to show for my game dev efforts.

If you've been wondering where I've been, essentially the prior is the answer to that, I've been deep diving trying to learn a bunch of stuff about Godot to make games with it and finally release a game and no longer feel like an absolute flop of a game dev. lol

Behind the scenes I've been mostly working on Godot, Art, and Secrets of the Dax'thuu stuff and I realized I haven't posted here or my Art blog in a lil bit. I have a bit of stuff to post, but coming soon I will do an organized update post SOON.

Keep Howling,
Wolf.

Special Update

That is all.

 

Random updates and stuff

 Basically just here to say that...


I really need to get my Art Blog it's own pageview counter.

A thought concept: Black Hole Stability & Existence

 I was just sitting here thinking about space and a thought crossed my mind.

When mass is drawn in to a central point through the effects of gravity it usually after a while just explodes back out, so with that being said, how -does- a black hole form?

What level of force does it take to condense matter down so hard that it's density exceeds it's ever present need to not be condensed?

Does a Black Hole need an extremely cold mass of matter?
If so, how does it not heat it up beyond Black Hole Criticality?
Does it form from collapsing stars?
If so, how does the star not go super nova before?

A black hole by all means is an Anomaly,
But Anomalies may be the key to understand what existence is.

- W <3 L F

Wolf Jam 2024

Wolf Jam 2024 is getting an early announcement on the theme for next year!

This year's theme:

Rogue-Like

It's a bit early to announce, but since Wolf Jam isn't really super well known I thought I'd give people a really long time to get the ball rollin with their ideas.

Reminder: Wolf Jam is an 18+ Jam with a focus on NSFW twists to popular Genres.

I made Wolf Jam with the intent of helping inspire people who are interested in NSFW Game Development to give it a try or to give NSFW Game Devs something to make them think and possibly inspire new ideas.

I hope you all will have a great time!

 https://itch.io/jam/the-wolf-jam

- W <3 L F

True Neutral Alignment

 AKA, the "I do not exist within a societal context yet" Alignmnet

A fun choice for Druids, honestly.
Take it from me: the person who almost always plays True Neutral Druid-Fighters.

Must protecc muh trees.

- W <3 L F

Short Story: The Destined Demise

 Imagine, if you would, a world of otherworldly magic and creatures, full of life of it's own along with life familiar. Within this world there stood a knight who trained long hours and even made their own blade and armor, this knight even outliving their own name and the kingdom they once served. They became, at the time, a legend and a story told by parents to their kids to scare them away from becoming a bandit.

This knight stood tall through thick and thin, but as with all things, they must come to an end, right? And so, woven by the threads of fate, a prophecy arose. The prophecy predicted that the unyielding knight will finally meet their end. The people of the world heard this prophecy that proved the fabled knight while also condemning them and at the end of a prophesy the promise that the one to end the knight will become a powerful knight themselves.

All had heard this prophecy, even the knight themself heard of it, but found it displeasing. The knight stood tall from an old lean to as they head out, seeking a place they once were before. Treading through forests as gales of winds blow against their journey and storms beat down on them like a monsoon. It seemed that the very world itself wanted to end them, storms and lightning as they go far.

As the knight continued they'd be ambushed by bandits and rogues seeking to claim the power of the fate for themselves, but the knight made easy work of each of them, refusing to let their fate be told. Further on rangers and archers attempted to take them down with a rain of arrows and crossbow bolts, but once more the knight was unstoppable.

Eventually so much word had spread where the knight was that a nearby king sought the power of the fate to rule his kingdom with an iron fist and thusly organized an entire army of knights, finding out where the knight was heading and readying his troops there to catch the knight. Finally, at last, the knight's journey seemed to be at an end as they spotted it, the castle keep which held the throne room of the kingdom they once served under, the only thing left in a large field where the castle once stood and the area outside of the castle which was a battleground once before.

And now the knight sees spread out across the once peaceful fields of the lost kingdom is countless other knights and soldiers organized by the king. The knight slowly raises his blade as the hoards of soldiers gaze on in awe at the legend before a commander gives the call to charge. There's a roar of battle cries as the soldiers all rush forward to meet blades with the legendary knight, but alas many of them fall before they get nary a swing towards the knight, the knight dispatching soldier after soldier in an almost graceful majestic rhythm as they dance across the battlefield with blade in hand, a whirlwind of precise strikes with confetti of blood showering their once pristine armor.

The battle goes on for hours as the knight slowly carves their way through hoards of soldiers until finally they are left the only one standing; commanders, soldiers, other knights, all of them met their fate by the bite of the knight's blade. The knight is tired and out of breath, for even they must surely have their limits. The knight slowly presses open the large doors to the throne room, seeing the mostly empty throne room with the stone throne at the end of a walkway draped with a tattered old rug.

The knight walks forward towards the throne as suddenly a blade finds a way between their armor from behind, driving up into their chest as the king himself snuck in a blow on the knight, but just as quickly as he makes the blow the knight swings their blade, clashing with the king and almost knocking the king off balance. Despite the knight's exhaustion, they still exhibit great strength. The king lunges towards the knight and the two clash, the knight slowed enough from their weariness that the king can almost keep up, clashing blades in the old throne room as the knight takes more blows, slowing down more as the king gets a wild grin, slowly growing more careless in his attacks to do more damage.

Suddenly, the king makes a blow into the knights chest, causing them to seemingly stop with shock. The king laughs manically before the knight grabs the king's blade, pressing it in further through their body to bring the king closer before running the king through with their own blade. The king's body falls to the floor with his sword ran through the knight.

The knight slowly walks to the throne and sits down, drawing the blade out of their body before tossing it to the ground, the bloodied blade clattering across the stone floor, echoing in the quiet as the knight leans back. The knight lets out a slow long sigh as they look skyward for a moment, feeling the nip of death upon them. Their hands rest upon the stone arm rests as they slowly start to go limp, is this truly the fate of the knight of legend?...

As the quiet overtakes the room, the knight sits there, limp with blood staining their armor before their hand flinches and grips the stone throne, the knight slowly sitting up as they breath in. Their gaze towards the door as they persevere, outliving not just all of the attacks, but eventually even fate itself. Prophecies come and go, but the knight remains in that throne room, unending and unyielding as the day they were knighted within those stone walls.

Secrets of the Dax'thuu Announcement: Progress Update - 6/24/2023

 It's been a little while since I've talked about SOTDT sooo time for some updates!

Progress has been slow due to personal reasons, but slowly I am picking away at fleshing out the content in SOTDT. I have a Lot of content to go through and revise so that it is more easily digestible so it will still be a while, but keep your eye out for it on the main SOTDT Blog where it will be posted:
https://dnd-secrets-of-the-dax-thuu.blogspot.com/p/prelude.html

Aside from that, how about a little sneak peak into the sheer Size of SOTDT:

Secrets of the Dax'thuu adds in:

- 6 new Races
- 5 new Classes
 - 50+ Pages of new Spells
- Around 20 Pages of new Features
- A whole host of new rules focused around crafting and hunting monsters
- A boat load of references
- A World with Rich and Deep lore
- New Weapons
- New Systems

Note: this is as it stands now and there will probably be something that gets cut or added.

Additionally: SOTDT will also have an 18+ Addon called Devious Desires, which will host a wide variety of odd otherworldly kinks and lewd stuff, for those who are of age and wish to spice things up for them and their (Probably) horny D&D group.

I can not wait for this to finally get released and I hope you all will enjoy this greatly!~

Until then, Stay well,

- W <3 L F

Thoughts as of current

 I've been thinking about my presence online and thinking about, well, how a lot of social medias seem to be very keen on just always showing the worst most negative shit because it's what gets the most attention to what ever the fuck they want to show you... So I had a thought...

A part of me is tempted to do my random postings here instead of on, like, Twitter or something. I probably won't really get the best views, but if I manage my metadata well it could work out and be better for my mentally than the fuckfest that is Twitter.

Sooooo yeah, might be doing more with my blog,

If I do, I hope you enjoy.

- W <3 L F

Project: Ex Deo - Devlog 3

6/24/2023

 Whew boy, it's been a while. I ended up getting sick and doing, like... absolutely nothing for weeks.

So, got back into doing some thing with Ex Deo.

Got a stamina system set up despite it being extremely early.

probably should do some other things first, but ya' know, we ball.

and that's that for no with Ex Deo.

 - W <3 L F